Yoooooo been a while, dreamwidth! I have a personal irl thing I kind of want to talk about here, but I also kind of don't know all the people who follow me here all that well (if I were to lock the post I mean), and I'm torn about whether I should post it on my irl dw account where I actually know the people or here where it's strangers because it is a topic that can be highly contentious and I don't want people to judge me or yell at me? Man idek. Honestly I've talked to enough people one on one about it that it probably doesn't bear repeating.
So let's talk about something else! That something else is blaming![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
dustofwarfare for getting me into hockey fic, though she has not succeeded at getting me into actual hockey. Just fictional hockey, or fanfictional hockey, as the case may be. So on that topic, I have been reading both a bunch of m/m hockey romance novels (the first romance novels I've read since I was a teenager and guess what, I love them), and a bunch of hockey rpf when I ran out of romance novels. I find this genre fascinating because the last few fandoms I was in involved a lot of woobie characters? Which is to say, the characters were perhaps not woobies in canon, but fandom does a lot of woobificiation, and that tends to bring along with it feminization? And after spending so long in FFXV and reading god knows how many fics where Prompto or Noctis is just.....way more feminine than he is in canon, it was a revelation to read some hockey fic which is just full of masculinity in a way that other fandoms are not. The tropes are different too! Especially the tropes are different to go along with the higher masculinity level.
I realize this is kind of problematic to talk about in the first place because it's not like having emotions and crying a lot make a dude less a dude. And it's not like sports aren't incredibly full of toxic masculinity. But I enjoy reading about traditionally masculine guys falling in love, whether it's with women or with each other, and when it's with other traditionally masculine guys it gets really interesting. It's like, Brokeback Mountain kind of drama or something, idk. What I enjoy is that there are a whole lot of fics where the guys are falling in love with each other but one or both of them don't realize it because they're so programmed to think that that's not what's happening that it doesn't even occur to them. There's also a lot of "I thought you were straight and therefore not interested," and there's a lot of "I thought *I* was straight," and "oh bisexuality is a thing wow," and "everyone else thought we were dating but we didn't realize that we're basically married since we live together and sleep in the same bed and touch each other all the time because we never actually kissed, hey maybe we should do that."
And it's not to say that I want to read a ton of coming out fic or fic about homophobia, because I do honestly love fanfiction worlds where everyone is assumed to be bisexual until proven otherwise, but it does sometimes bring drama that's kind of like when I got into Stargate Atlantis fandom and discovered basically an entire subgenre of fic about Don't Ask Don't Tell. So yeah, I don't know, I've read a fuckton of hockey fic lately, and it's all been really good. It's also all really long? Like is 10k words the minimum length you're allowed to write for hockey rpf or something?
The only problem with it is that I've been curious enough to look up some of these guys IRL and alas, they are not nearly as hot as fanfiction would lead one to believe (okay, a couple of them are kinda hot, but largely they are Not). Also some of them appear to be total douchebags IRL and I don't really want to read fic about a guy who is actually not a very nice person IRL? Also now google thinks I care about hockey and keeps sending me notifications and ads about hockey.
ALL OF THIS TO SAY hello, I have written a hockey fanfic, but it isn't hockey rpf, it's fanfic of fictional hockey players from a hockey romance. If you're interested, you can read it here, no knowledge of the book required!
I think I should do a fanfic roundup, shouldn't I? Here's my latest fic posted:
third man in, the above referenced hockey fic, for Avon Gale's Scoring Chances book series
bad guy, Daredevil, Matt/Elektra(/Karen), written for a song prompt exchange
the glory of the empire, FFXV, Cor/Loqi BDSM AU with dom!Loqi and sub!Cor
unbreakable, Doctrine of Labyrinths, Felix/Mildmay, for nonconathon
I've also written a fic for remix but it's not revealed yet. The Original Project is still in progress and moving again after a delay, and we're heading into actually starting to shop it around to publishers as we approach writing the end of the book!
I can't believe I haven't published anything about Noctis since April, though I continue to do RP about him. Two whole years in FFXV fandom, wow. Also it's almost October, which means it's been almost a year since I did Kinktober last year, and I feel like Kinktober is what burned me out more than anything with writing FFXV fic but I kind of want to do it again? I kind of don't though. I know I shouldn't. But I can't think of a good way to pick and choose and do LESS work but still enough to have fun with it. Also the FF8 remaster is out and I'm hopeful that'll drum up some more interest in that fandom and I'd definitely be interested in doing more with that fandom.
What else what else. I watched season 3 of Young Justice! It was good! I had feelings! But honestly my biggest disappointment was not getting more of Bart and Jaime. Like they were there, which is great, but they were so background that I felt like I just really missed them? After latching on so hard in s2. Halo was great, I loved her, and Brion, who I have a lot of feelings about. Forager was pretty much the best. And, of course, all of the feelings about the original six, though idk, I just . . . wanted more of Bart and Jaime. Season 2 of Titans started up again but I haven't watched the premiere yet. Season 3 of Harlots was good but I don't like having my faves killed off, so, you know.
Okay, I guess that's all for now. Hit me up with your hockey rpf recs if you have any!
So let's talk about something else! That something else is blaming
dustofwarfare for getting me into hockey fic, though she has not succeeded at getting me into actual hockey. Just fictional hockey, or fanfictional hockey, as the case may be. So on that topic, I have been reading both a bunch of m/m hockey romance novels (the first romance novels I've read since I was a teenager and guess what, I love them), and a bunch of hockey rpf when I ran out of romance novels. I find this genre fascinating because the last few fandoms I was in involved a lot of woobie characters? Which is to say, the characters were perhaps not woobies in canon, but fandom does a lot of woobificiation, and that tends to bring along with it feminization? And after spending so long in FFXV and reading god knows how many fics where Prompto or Noctis is just.....way more feminine than he is in canon, it was a revelation to read some hockey fic which is just full of masculinity in a way that other fandoms are not. The tropes are different too! Especially the tropes are different to go along with the higher masculinity level.I realize this is kind of problematic to talk about in the first place because it's not like having emotions and crying a lot make a dude less a dude. And it's not like sports aren't incredibly full of toxic masculinity. But I enjoy reading about traditionally masculine guys falling in love, whether it's with women or with each other, and when it's with other traditionally masculine guys it gets really interesting. It's like, Brokeback Mountain kind of drama or something, idk. What I enjoy is that there are a whole lot of fics where the guys are falling in love with each other but one or both of them don't realize it because they're so programmed to think that that's not what's happening that it doesn't even occur to them. There's also a lot of "I thought you were straight and therefore not interested," and there's a lot of "I thought *I* was straight," and "oh bisexuality is a thing wow," and "everyone else thought we were dating but we didn't realize that we're basically married since we live together and sleep in the same bed and touch each other all the time because we never actually kissed, hey maybe we should do that."
And it's not to say that I want to read a ton of coming out fic or fic about homophobia, because I do honestly love fanfiction worlds where everyone is assumed to be bisexual until proven otherwise, but it does sometimes bring drama that's kind of like when I got into Stargate Atlantis fandom and discovered basically an entire subgenre of fic about Don't Ask Don't Tell. So yeah, I don't know, I've read a fuckton of hockey fic lately, and it's all been really good. It's also all really long? Like is 10k words the minimum length you're allowed to write for hockey rpf or something?
The only problem with it is that I've been curious enough to look up some of these guys IRL and alas, they are not nearly as hot as fanfiction would lead one to believe (okay, a couple of them are kinda hot, but largely they are Not). Also some of them appear to be total douchebags IRL and I don't really want to read fic about a guy who is actually not a very nice person IRL? Also now google thinks I care about hockey and keeps sending me notifications and ads about hockey.
ALL OF THIS TO SAY hello, I have written a hockey fanfic, but it isn't hockey rpf, it's fanfic of fictional hockey players from a hockey romance. If you're interested, you can read it here, no knowledge of the book required!
I think I should do a fanfic roundup, shouldn't I? Here's my latest fic posted:
third man in, the above referenced hockey fic, for Avon Gale's Scoring Chances book series
bad guy, Daredevil, Matt/Elektra(/Karen), written for a song prompt exchange
the glory of the empire, FFXV, Cor/Loqi BDSM AU with dom!Loqi and sub!Cor
unbreakable, Doctrine of Labyrinths, Felix/Mildmay, for nonconathon
I've also written a fic for remix but it's not revealed yet. The Original Project is still in progress and moving again after a delay, and we're heading into actually starting to shop it around to publishers as we approach writing the end of the book!
I can't believe I haven't published anything about Noctis since April, though I continue to do RP about him. Two whole years in FFXV fandom, wow. Also it's almost October, which means it's been almost a year since I did Kinktober last year, and I feel like Kinktober is what burned me out more than anything with writing FFXV fic but I kind of want to do it again? I kind of don't though. I know I shouldn't. But I can't think of a good way to pick and choose and do LESS work but still enough to have fun with it. Also the FF8 remaster is out and I'm hopeful that'll drum up some more interest in that fandom and I'd definitely be interested in doing more with that fandom.
What else what else. I watched season 3 of Young Justice! It was good! I had feelings! But honestly my biggest disappointment was not getting more of Bart and Jaime. Like they were there, which is great, but they were so background that I felt like I just really missed them? After latching on so hard in s2. Halo was great, I loved her, and Brion, who I have a lot of feelings about. Forager was pretty much the best. And, of course, all of the feelings about the original six, though idk, I just . . . wanted more of Bart and Jaime. Season 2 of Titans started up again but I haven't watched the premiere yet. Season 3 of Harlots was good but I don't like having my faves killed off, so, you know.
Okay, I guess that's all for now. Hit me up with your hockey rpf recs if you have any!
