hello dreamwidth, my signup for consent issues for this year has been out for pinch hit for forever and nobody is picking it up 😭 so if you're interested in writing some sketchy fic for me or for anyone else who's out for pinch hit check out what's out there! https://consent-issues-exchange.dreamwidth.org/56046.html

I keep wondering if I should post it to the fandom calendar comm or something to get more eyes on the pinch hits but it's not really my responsibility, I just want someone to write me some destiel sex pollen or any of the other weirder things I requested 😌

Hello author! My specific prompts are in my signup but here's some general info on my likes and interests if you want it! You can also feel free to browse my dreamwidth for letters I've written for other previous exchanges.

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(emerging from the void to post a dear author letter but hi everyone!  this is almost exactly the same as last year's letter)

( dear author! )

just kidding it's not hell, but it does involve double hockey sticks (/groaning at my own bad joke)

Seriously though, I don't post here often but I have definitely crossed over from "I don't care about hockey but Tyler Seguin is hot" to having an NHL.TV subscription and watching hockey games several times a week. And I went to the local minor league hockey team's game last night!

It occurred to me that the appeal of hockey RPF is actually the SAME as the appeal of FFXV. Basically: a group of bros, working together to accomplish a goal that involves a lot of masculine activities (like fighting), who are not afraid to show how much they love each other and rely on each other's support, but also give each other shit all the time. Manly men with feelings is apparently my kryptonite.

Also, hockey rpf fandom has GOOD FIC, like, wow, the quality level is way higher than most fandoms. There's so much less badfic, and all the people I've talked to are really nice? I joined a discord server about it which has been surprisingly great, because every FFXV discord I joined had so much traffic it was overwhelming and I couldn't deal. This one has a decent amount of chatter, but not constantly, so it's not like I open it up after a couple hours and find so much stuff I would never be able to catch up.

In other news, I defaulted on Yuletide for the first time ever. I should have remembered the guidance that you always match on the fandom you least want to write, but even so, I just had zero motivation to write the assignment I was given. I figured it would be better to default now than later, but I will keep an eye on the pinch hits list. But I signed up for Hockey Holidays instead, and my consent issues exchange fic is done barring some editing, so I think I'm in good shape generally. I'm co-modding the FFXV exchange again this year but I didn't sign up for it, and my co-mod is handling a lot of the work.

Anyway if anyone wants to talk hockey with me hit me up because I always go hard when I end up in a new fandom.

Before I go off for the rest of this post about hockey RPF, let me just provide you a link first to my remix fic!

scoop (the twenty thousand followers remix), Yuri on Ice, outsider POV of Victor/Yuuri. This was a remix of Skin by dance_across. I had a lot of fun writing it!

One more note before the rest of this post devolves into nonsense -- I got an ask about whether or not I'm going to run the FFXV Holiday Gift Exchange this year and I don't know what to do with it. I'm not particularly motivated to do it at the moment, and last year it got to 50 participants and was a LOT of work? I feel like to cut down on the amount of work would require either particularly engaged co-mods or changing the sign-up form in some way to simplify things, but I'm not sure how to do that. I don't like getting stressed out about fic exchanges during the holidays and last year it was kind of overwhelming, mostly because people cannot follow directions. And, to be honest, I think I am moving on from FFXV, and even if I wasn't modding it I don't know that I'd even participate. So I'm not really sure what to do. I feel kind of obligated to do it? But I also didn't plan on doing it, so. What to do? I'm open to advice. I also feel kind of bad about moving on from FFXV, but honestly TWO WHOLE YEARS in a single fandom is a crazy long time for me.

Okay, moving on, now I will proceed to blab about hockey rpf for the rest of this post.

( the blabbing about hockey rpf )

Yoooooo been a while, dreamwidth! I have a personal irl thing I kind of want to talk about here, but I also kind of don't know all the people who follow me here all that well (if I were to lock the post I mean), and I'm torn about whether I should post it on my irl dw account where I actually know the people or here where it's strangers because it is a topic that can be highly contentious and I don't want people to judge me or yell at me? Man idek. Honestly I've talked to enough people one on one about it that it probably doesn't bear repeating.

So let's talk about something else! That something else is blaming dustofwarfare for getting me into hockey fic, though she has not succeeded at getting me into actual hockey. Just fictional hockey, or fanfictional hockey, as the case may be. So on that topic, I have been reading both a bunch of m/m hockey romance novels (the first romance novels I've read since I was a teenager and guess what, I love them), and a bunch of hockey rpf when I ran out of romance novels. I find this genre fascinating because the last few fandoms I was in involved a lot of woobie characters? Which is to say, the characters were perhaps not woobies in canon, but fandom does a lot of woobificiation, and that tends to bring along with it feminization? And after spending so long in FFXV and reading god knows how many fics where Prompto or Noctis is just.....way more feminine than he is in canon, it was a revelation to read some hockey fic which is just full of masculinity in a way that other fandoms are not. The tropes are different too! Especially the tropes are different to go along with the higher masculinity level.

I realize this is kind of problematic to talk about in the first place because it's not like having emotions and crying a lot make a dude less a dude. And it's not like sports aren't incredibly full of toxic masculinity. But I enjoy reading about traditionally masculine guys falling in love, whether it's with women or with each other, and when it's with other traditionally masculine guys it gets really interesting. It's like, Brokeback Mountain kind of drama or something, idk. What I enjoy is that there are a whole lot of fics where the guys are falling in love with each other but one or both of them don't realize it because they're so programmed to think that that's not what's happening that it doesn't even occur to them. There's also a lot of "I thought you were straight and therefore not interested," and there's a lot of "I thought *I* was straight," and "oh bisexuality is a thing wow," and "everyone else thought we were dating but we didn't realize that we're basically married since we live together and sleep in the same bed and touch each other all the time because we never actually kissed, hey maybe we should do that."

And it's not to say that I want to read a ton of coming out fic or fic about homophobia, because I do honestly love fanfiction worlds where everyone is assumed to be bisexual until proven otherwise, but it does sometimes bring drama that's kind of like when I got into Stargate Atlantis fandom and discovered basically an entire subgenre of fic about Don't Ask Don't Tell. So yeah, I don't know, I've read a fuckton of hockey fic lately, and it's all been really good. It's also all really long? Like is 10k words the minimum length you're allowed to write for hockey rpf or something?

The only problem with it is that I've been curious enough to look up some of these guys IRL and alas, they are not nearly as hot as fanfiction would lead one to believe (okay, a couple of them are kinda hot, but largely they are Not). Also some of them appear to be total douchebags IRL and I don't really want to read fic about a guy who is actually not a very nice person IRL? Also now google thinks I care about hockey and keeps sending me notifications and ads about hockey.

ALL OF THIS TO SAY hello, I have written a hockey fanfic, but it isn't hockey rpf, it's fanfic of fictional hockey players from a hockey romance. If you're interested, you can read it here, no knowledge of the book required!

I think I should do a fanfic roundup, shouldn't I? Here's my latest fic posted:
third man in, the above referenced hockey fic, for Avon Gale's Scoring Chances book series

bad guy, Daredevil, Matt/Elektra(/Karen), written for a song prompt exchange

the glory of the empire, FFXV, Cor/Loqi BDSM AU with dom!Loqi and sub!Cor

unbreakable, Doctrine of Labyrinths, Felix/Mildmay, for nonconathon

I've also written a fic for remix but it's not revealed yet. The Original Project is still in progress and moving again after a delay, and we're heading into actually starting to shop it around to publishers as we approach writing the end of the book!

I can't believe I haven't published anything about Noctis since April, though I continue to do RP about him. Two whole years in FFXV fandom, wow. Also it's almost October, which means it's been almost a year since I did Kinktober last year, and I feel like Kinktober is what burned me out more than anything with writing FFXV fic but I kind of want to do it again? I kind of don't though. I know I shouldn't. But I can't think of a good way to pick and choose and do LESS work but still enough to have fun with it. Also the FF8 remaster is out and I'm hopeful that'll drum up some more interest in that fandom and I'd definitely be interested in doing more with that fandom.

What else what else. I watched season 3 of Young Justice! It was good! I had feelings! But honestly my biggest disappointment was not getting more of Bart and Jaime. Like they were there, which is great, but they were so background that I felt like I just really missed them? After latching on so hard in s2. Halo was great, I loved her, and Brion, who I have a lot of feelings about. Forager was pretty much the best. And, of course, all of the feelings about the original six, though idk, I just . . . wanted more of Bart and Jaime. Season 2 of Titans started up again but I haven't watched the premiere yet. Season 3 of Harlots was good but I don't like having my faves killed off, so, you know.

Okay, I guess that's all for now. Hit me up with your hockey rpf recs if you have any!

I know I said this before but I will be going to fanworks con next month! Registration is still open so if anyone else wants to join me, sign up now!

In other news, nonconathon reveals are in two days and I'm excited to see what I'm getting! I ended up writing in a small fandom for it this year (but I won't tell you what it was until reveals).

In other news, most of my writing energy has been going to either The Original Project or to the ridiculous FFXV RP universe I have with dustofwarfare and freosan. We've written over 500k words of this RP that sadly makes no sense to anyone but us, but it's super fun. The original project is over 50k words at this point and more than half done, and my co-author's agent likes it, so I think this will actually get published! I picked my pen name and set up a twitter for my pen name. Per my co-author's recommendation, I'm not going to publicly link my fandom name to my publishing name at all, since apparently that leads to people who don't like your books being jerks to you in fandom?

In other news, work has been crazy, but I just got back from a weeklong vacation to Asheville, NC. Well, to the Asheville area, anyway -- we didn't spend much time actually in Asheville. It was a lot of fun, and the kids and my mom both enjoyed it I think! Also one of the things we brought back was beer from this brewery which specializes in recreating historic beers. We got three bottles -- one IPA made from a recipe from 1850, and two beers from the same pub in London 30 years apart (like 1804 and 1834 or something). I'm curious to try them but we haven't opened them yet.

I continue to be stymied by the divide between tumblr and twitter. I feel like I'm not really engaging with people in either place now? It's weird. I've got my RP chat that is my main fandom chatter at this point, which I feel kind of bad about sometimes because my other fandom friend I used to talk to every day and I aren't talking as much anymore. Partially that's because she's also my beta and I haven't been writing much, so I haven't been begging her to look at everything, and partially it's because we don't have a common fandom atm and the TV shows we watch together are on summer hiatus. (Oh crap that reminds me I'm probably behind on The 100 again.)

Let's see, what else do I have to talk about? My dash and twitter feed are all crazy for the FFVII remake, so I imagine that will become a fandom for me at some point. I'm still dying for good FFVIII fic but alas, there isn't much, and I can't figure out how to write any. BUT, I think my enthusiasm has talked dustofwarfare into writing another fic in her Seifer/Squall/Rinoa universe and I'm totally here for it!

Forgot to mention, I am planning to attend the FanWorks con in Detroit in August, so if you'll be there let me know!